This is my first entry for this blog...
I shall start off by commenting on the papers that I have attempted so far as I only have strong recollections of the exam experience this semester.
I feel today's analytical chemistry paper is really tough to the max.. in terms of time management.. overall i feel the paper can be done if not for some careless mistakes as usual.. For CM2132 (PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY), I feel it was ok simply because the derivation part for the first question I could get almost close to the wanted result and as usual the inorganic paper was manageable as mentioned by many... LSM2101 was also quite ok..
Now, about my experience for this semester.. This semester is hectic as compared to other semesters in year 1.. reason being: tests and more tests.. Analytical chemistry alone has 7 tests, of which 2 term tests and 4 surprise tests and 1 mock exam.. Physical has 2 short tests and 1 mid term.. LSM has 2 term tests.. and inorg has 2 terms.. PLUS ES2007S.. the total workload is really crazy to the point that often I feel like breaking down.. In addition, I often feel down due to the not-so-encouraging tests results.. as we all know smaller class size equates to stifle competition.. It really gives no chances for one to make the slightest mistake.. one mistake and you are out of the race..
Enough of the school work.. Now about the friends I have made.. I feel that this semester I have made good friends of course.. in addition to my long time chem clique.. I will not mention names but some of them really took notice of me when I was seriously dejected.. They really provided sound advices and encouraging messages to perk one's mood.. For that, I am really thankful for the existence of this super cool friends that I have..
In addition to friends.. I fell in love with someone whom I met from the start of the semester... She is someone whom I think people describe as 'love at first sight'.. She is one that gives a kind of feeling that is beyond any form of description.. just that special.. However, we did not have the chance to see each other in school due to conflicting timetable schedules.. I only managed to converse with her via msn and sms-es.. I believe the phrase 'Absence makes one's heart grow fonder' really aptly describes my feelings for her at the moment.. I also know that because of little communication outside the net would actually place me at a disadvantageous position to court her or anything.. In the first place.. I have made the wrong move by giving her the wrong impression that I liked someone else and actually making up a third person and relating my problems to her when the third person is actually her.. I really hate myself for that.. :x
Furthermore.. I have not done much for her too.. except hand-making a birthday card for her.. and also recently.. I found out that she is quite close to a male friend of hers.. I admit I am jealous and because of that.. I was quite affected for some period of time.. I know I should not expect much.. I almost stand zero or a small percentage of chance only.. but I really wish to give it a try.. If I never try.. I will not get any answer.. Currently, I am fretting over the breaking of the news to her.. thinking of the suitable approach for such a situation.. I am also compiling a song for her.. based on a theme that she likes.. Some may feel that my actions are not justified as she may not reciprocate my love for her.. In my opinion, whether we eventually get together.. I just want to complete with whatever I have started.. just want to make a perfect full stop even if i have to do so.. :x
